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Too Good To Be True

How did I not see it coming?
All along, it was too good to be true.
You’d take me up to sit on cloud nine,
Then bring me back down to one again.
You could do some fancy talking,
But you’d never follow through.
You had me hooked from day one
And somehow, I couldn’t back down.
I knew how bad you really were
But you made me feel as if I was special,
As if I was worth something,
The way no one else could make me feel.
My friends warned me against you
But my excuse was that they didn’t
Know you like I did so well.
I should have known that
All along, It was too good to be true.
One day it finally clicked
And man it hurt like hell
But finally I realized who you really are.
You’re sweet, you’re funny,
You’re charming and clever
But you’re manipulating too
Wrapping girls around your finger
Simply because you know you can
Making them expect the best
But delivering the worst
Does it really make you feel good?
Messing with girls’ heads all the time?
Do you honestly enjoy it?
Crushing our sprits at their peak?
Hopefully the next will realize
Sooner than I did this time
Hopefully they’ll see you for who you are
Though as much as I wish
I could hate and forget about you
I know that just can’t happen
Thankfully now I understand that
It was all too good to be true.

Blog posts, Writing

Have You Ever Lost A Child? In Loving Memory of Adelyn Rae Lynton

Have you ever lost child?
One with perfect toes,
Angelic features?
Have you ever experienced the guilt,
Thinking it was your fault?
But knowing it was not?

Have you ever lost a child?
Have you seen her all hooked up,
Inside a glass cage,
With tubes and such protruding?

Have you ever lost a child?
One that deserved to live?
Why did she go?
What did she do to deserve this?

Have you ever lost a child?
Has she only been a few days old,
With no understanding
of the world around her?

Have you ever lost a child?
Have you ever seen your daughter die?
Have you seen her turn blue,
With all the problems inside her?
Have you ever lost a child?
One that was struggling inside,
But looked so peaceful on the outside?
Have you ever lost a child?
And been through all that pain,
The grieving, the numbness, the denial?
Have you ever lost a child?
Have you ever stopped and considered,
That though she is away from you,
She’s in a better place?

Away from the tubes and needles,
Safe in the arms of God?

 

STORY BEHIND THE POEM:

In 2009, my second-cousin was born. She was premature, and only lived 5 days. Our family was heartbroken, watching this little girl who’d never breathed fresh air, dying. A picture of her is below.

Adelyn Rae Lynton